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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Buried Alive

It’s dark and smells of dirt. Me, the juicy and fat earthworm.

This magic trick, it’s supposed to last ten minutes. Ten minutes and poof and awe and free from my premature grave.

The slight of hand – the trick – the thing behind the thing you see – it’s that the magician never actually is buried alive.

It’s all an illusion.

Until that magician decides to actually bury himself alive. Then it’s headline suicide.

It’s dark and the world is small and none-existent. My breath, as it bounces back to me after hitting the wooden lid, is silent. Down here, ten feet under the wet Earth, the fat, juicy earthworm, I hear nothing, and think I finally made it to Space.

Sensory deprivation with T-minus ten minutes before the oxygen runs out.

I’m an astronaut and I’m making one final revolution around the Earth and down below are all the people I’ve never met and I wonder if they even exist.

This thing, it’s one big game.

Ten feet above, with his feet planted on the ground, is my Assistant. He believes I’ll appear across the street. He believes that in ten minutes I’ll walk out of that Starbucks with a Grande Latte and a smile.

Me, I’m drowning, and unlike that statue, I can’t hold the Earth on my back.

Down here in the quiet, cold, coffin, I envision the things I’ve lost and never will get back. Me, I’m that character in the Sci-Fi movie who enters half way through the film from that parallel universe where things just weren’t quite right. I’m that dart next to the board stuck awkwardly in the cork.

Me, missing the mark.

But now, in my Space, in my sensory-deprived reprieve, I hear banging. I hear shouting. I hear the Bulldozer.

My Assistant – that impromptu Hero – might be trying to save my life.

And just keep walking down the sidewalk and try not to step on the cracks.

But he can’t be?

And the pictures floating on the coffin lid are golden and smell of rosemary.

And the sounds, like banging in my ears, gasp for oxygen. And that bulldozer, with its shovel of life, doesn’t exist. And I’m a guy draping a handkerchief over my face trying to make myself disappear.

My Assistant, he’s probably saying something like, “Don’t worry folks, it’s all a part of the act.” He saying, "This is all an illusion."

 

7 comments:

Webster Twelb said...

Welcome again Andrew! It's nice to read a new story from you. Happy new year again!

Webster Twelb said...

Welcome back***

Mr. Grudge said...

Hi Andrew,
Still turning high quality "Andrew Ruth" stories. I needed my fix. let me know how you are doing here in this great state. terrific story, but was it just an illusion this blog post? Are you really back? -Mike.

Andrew Ruth said...

Thanks Webster! Sorry I was gone so long; I was going through a bit of a transition....

Hey Mike, NYC is great but I'm taking things one hour at a time for now. As for being back...yeah, but I won't be posting with the frequency I was; however, I will try to post multiple times a week. I hope all is well with you.

The Uneasy Supplicant said...

Andrew
The site looks great and once again a great story. Certainly a good read and well worth the wait! It's nice to see you back!
Take care. Hope things are going well.
~JD

Andrew Ruth said...

Thanks JD -- you and me both with the site. And NYC...it's been a hell of a ride so far.

Jod{i} said...

Your mind is just incredible...

Nice to have you back, you were missed! Looks great as well!